Insecurities
I'm trying to get back into running (it's an on and off thing for me), and so I needed to keep myself interested. So, I got an audiobook from the online library (as you do) and the one I decided to get was Insecurities by Beth Moore. I'm 3 chapters in and it's sooo good.
One of the things she talks about is having a "prominent false positive." The majority of women have insecurities...it's almost impossible to not have them. However, we each have a "prominent false positive" or two. That's that "thing" we think once we get, we'll be 100% secure which is totally false! Looking back over my life, I now realize one big thing I believed....I thought (back in my naive days) that once I had a boyfriend, I would no longer be insecure. HA! Now that laugh isn't meant to be hurtful (sorry Cal). But having a boyfriend hasn't made all insecurities go away, despite what all of you single ladies may think! Life is more complicated than that. Beth talks in her first chapter about our man issues, which I wont get into, but are very interesting!
That being said, I'm still insecure today. I have good years and bad years, and I've been on an insecure one. I'll be up front and honest with you since...well, it helps knowing others have insecurities too! Over the past few years I have gained or accentuated some curves that are not my friend!! Despite how "good" Kim Kardashian makes it look, I get pretty insecure about my hourglass shape! So body shape and look, those two are pretty average to have. It's not uncommon for a woman to be uncomfortable with the way she looks. There are healthy ways and unhealthy ways to deal with this. One unhealthy way I deal with it is fishing for compliments from my boyfriend. I LOVE it when he tells me I'm "pretty" or even "beautiful" and more often than not, he tells me on his own without my manipulation. But every once in awhile it's "I feel so bad today; I'm having a horrible hair day!" or "I didn't put ANY make up at all today...I feel so goofy looking!" to which he replies some very nice things. But I shouldn't get my confidence from what he thinks (although I like hearing it). One healthy way to deal with it is to eat better and exercise more (duh). I mean, if I don't do that, it's my own fault. But secondly, I need to pray. Strengthen my relationship with God. Gain wisdom from his words.
So, friends, I'll leave you with this verse. Let's overcome our insecurities together!
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
-Psalm 139:17-18
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